Yesterday Alyssa visited with the lactation specialist at the hospital. Logan is gaining weight so I guess the pumping and feeding worked. He actually nursed in the lactation nurse's office for about 15 minutes. Maybe he's getting the hang of eating after all.
Today we will go to Kansas City to visit the Pediatric Orthopedic Surgeon and he will get his first set of casts. Afterwards, I will pass both of them off to Andy's mom and head back to Omaha. I get very sad just typing that. I don't want to go, but I need to get back to my boys and to work.
I know that 180 miles is not that far away, but to me it seems like an insurmountable distance. I have been so far away from my own family for so long, and it never gets easier. I've missed my family for 20 years, and now I wont be with Alyssa and Logan. Oh how I long for the days that families lived in clusters and never moved away.
I feel like I have been through so many transitions this year with school, work, church, and now becoming a grandmother. My emotional Geiger counter is through the roof. I need some time now to decompress and reflect on the year. Besides, Alyssa and Logan will be in Omaha in about 10 days to meet my mom, Logan's GREAT Grandmother, Kathy. I wonder if she'll let him call her grandma? Love you mom!